What is going on guys? This is an informal essay that expresses
the feeling of not only being but also living in this seemingly clear but blur world.
So what do I mean by that? It is prominent that we as humans are all
trying to find the happiness, or the fulfillment of desire in our lives.
Nevertheless, we all know how hard and unrealistic
the idea is. As a matter of fact, we all had the moments when we feel lost,
depressed, and devastated. Why? Because we
are blinded by the materials that are supposed to be the tools to help us achieve the
utopia. Just please do me a favor: reminiscing all the decisions that you made, and reflect
to yourself how many of those decisions are contrary to your
conscience? How many of them ultimately cause you pain and regret?
And how many of them make you lost your loved ones?
Tons of them, right? Lately, I've reading a book called "Our Inner Conflicts"
where the author analyzes the root of why normal
people and people with psychotic issues. He deliberately points
out humans often times subconsciously choose to ignore these
conflicts which leads to periodical depression, easily tiredness,
and self-termination. As a result, he concludes that humans are a
complex of conflicts, and the best way to resolve or just to ease these conflicts is to spend
scores of time analyzing these conflicts, realizing what's best for us,
and eventually choose to a path that works best for you. It is nothing wrong with being
a dissembler. It is wrong when we can't control these conflicts and affect the outer atmosphere.